Hi All
I know wishing someone die, will be really awful thing to even think..but I can't help myself. My husband wants to go to india every year stay with his beloved mother all his vacation. I don't have parents or any close relatives where I can go and stay. This time I told him I want to go out at least for a week some where on vacation. he agreed for it in beginning, later after talking to his mom he says it should be limited to 3 days. I have to live according to my SIL, AND MIL wish. They don't want to give any privacy, even they check my BAG whenever I go out. They get jealous even if I get Rs.100 stuff for me. She can't go any where out b'coz she has back pain and she doesn't want us to go out too...only place I can go if her relatives and her other kids. My sil also stays with her, both talk on my back when ever I go there..Telling my husband about all these things is total waste, as it ends up in big fight. His explanation is his mom is in 70's (I wonder I will die before her?? after going through all htese...) he don't want to hurt her. She wanted us to visit her elder son who lives in different city, those people has not spoken to us for years!. I am getting thoughts that SHE SHOULD DIE..SO THAT I CAN AT LEAST GET LITTLE HAPPINESS IN MY VACATION. this is going on for 15 years now and I am really fed up!!..what should I do??.
I know wishing someone die, will be really awful thing to even think..but I can't help myself. My husband wants to go to india every year stay with his beloved mother all his vacation. I don't have parents or any close relatives where I can go and stay. This time I told him I want to go out at least for a week some where on vacation. he agreed for it in beginning, later after talking to his mom he says it should be limited to 3 days. I have to live according to my SIL, AND MIL wish. They don't want to give any privacy, even they check my BAG whenever I go out. They get jealous even if I get Rs.100 stuff for me. She can't go any where out b'coz she has back pain and she doesn't want us to go out too...only place I can go if her relatives and her other kids. My sil also stays with her, both talk on my back when ever I go there..Telling my husband about all these things is total waste, as it ends up in big fight. His explanation is his mom is in 70's (I wonder I will die before her?? after going through all htese...) he don't want to hurt her. She wanted us to visit her elder son who lives in different city, those people has not spoken to us for years!. I am getting thoughts that SHE SHOULD DIE..SO THAT I CAN AT LEAST GET LITTLE HAPPINESS IN MY VACATION. this is going on for 15 years now and I am really fed up!!..what should I do??.